I am one person. Yep, just one. Though I play many roles--wife, mother, daughter, sister, friend, PTA president, and author. My plate is full. It's actually so full I think I may have to upgrade to a platter.
I'm all over the place. I run here and run there. My schedule is so crammed pack that for right now, I'm simply trying to take it one day at a time. I live by the motto: How do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time. That's all I can do.
Because of that, I have been failing my writing/blogging/author buddies. I'm perfectly aware of it. I know it. I noticed when my name was deleted from my author friends sidebars--I saw and I understood. It sucks, but I get it. And as much as I want to fix it and be better, I'm finding that it's near impossible to do so. My schedule is insane. Pure craziness. I'm actually writing this post while my children skate at the local fun center (a PTA sponsored event for my children's elementary school that I'm in charge of). Multitasking.
I know that I've made promises to author friends. I know I've been given copies of manuscripts or published novels to read, review, and edit. I'm also perfectly aware that I haven't done any of it. I can't. Unless I give up sleeping, I don't see how I possibly can.
Not to give excuses, but I have one book coming out the end of November that is in the editing process and another coming out in January that my publisher wants to start editing in a couple of weeks. I will be editing two projects at once. AND to top that off, I really need to use November's NaNoWriMo month to work on developing a rough draft for my 3rd zombie book in The Zombie West Series that's supposed to come out in May (I haven't written one word on it yet). So yeah, I'm busy. I'm not trying to be a bad friend. I'm not trying to ignore my writer and author friends, it's just part of the fallout of my crazy life.
So I apologize. I really do. And I do understand your dissing me and pulling away. I get it. I miss you and I wish I could promise that I will be better, but I can't promise anything anymore. All I can say is that I will try harder. It's all I can do. If I promised you something I couldn't deliver on, I'm so sorry. My deepest apology from the bottom of my heart. I'm so sorry.