Everything I've ever hoped, everything I've ever dreamed, everything I have ever written in my 25+ years of writing (I'm not divulging my EXACT age, you fool) has all led to this moment--the day my first book was published. Oh, my gosh, my stomach just did some flip-flops when I wrote that.
How is possible that you can want something so much, work towards it endlessly for years, and then feel really sick and nauseous when it actually comes true? Maybe because this is it. This is the moment of truth. My book is set free into the world to fly or fall on its own merits, and people who set books free into the world are super brave people--and I've never considered myself brave. I'm more like a wuss. Ask anyone who knows me. Heights? No way. Spiders and snakes? Freak me out. Throw all caution to the wind? Heck no. Never. Ever.
But here I am. My book WANTED: Dead or Undead, the first in the zombie west series is up on Amazon. It was actually put up yesterday, but this whole business of puking hasn't hit me until today.
Yesterday was easy going. I was like, "Oh, lookie there! My book's on Amazon. That's nice." And then I proceeded to send out a few dozen copies to book reviewers like it was no big deal. Easy-peasy.
But today, AYE CARUMBA! Remember how awhile ago I equated publishing a book to standing naked in New York's Time Square? Well guess what? I'm all buck-naked and it's not a pleasant feeling, not to mention rather chilly.
But maybe, when achieving something you've always dreamed of, this is the way I'm supposed to feel. Maybe others before me have felt this same kind of feeling--this pukey excited ball of craziness.
So despite feeling like throwing up, I am extremely excited as well. I really am. This has been a long time coming.
And even though my book isn't "officially-officially" released since the real date will be later this month, I want to throw a tiny virtual party. Just a little one to celebrate my pukey excitedness.
That is a jello mold in the top left corner. You can eat blueberry flavored BRAINNNNSS!!
So leave a comment below and do the following to receive a zombie swag pack and a copy of my zombie western in either epub or mobi format:
A) Tell me I'm crazy to feel like throwing up.
B) I'm normal and it will pass.
C) Pop over to Amazon and hit the like button for me. Also check out my tags and click on them if you agree (You don't have to do this, but boy it sure would help me out a ton if you would. i will leave that up to you).
I will randomly select a commenter and mail them the items you see above.
Now I'm off to go take some Tums.
3/20/2012 03:20:27 am
Wow! That's so awesome! i can't wait to read it. I loved your first pages. I haven't hit that feeling but I'm sure I will in another month!
3/20/2012 03:50:17 am
I'll likely be suffering the same symptoms at the end of the year... Not really sure if I'm looking forward to it or dreading it. It's an odd sensation. So I totally get where you're coming from. I might even go so far as to say it's normal? <--------- though please note the question mark. ;)
3/20/2012 04:35:15 am
Hey, Angela. You may have heard what I'm doing this month over at my blog (http://brookerbusse.blogspot.com/2012/03/but-occasssionally-i-wanna-talk-about.html) where I'm spotlighting other authors. I was wondering if you would mind if I posted about your book sometime this week, Wednesday or Thursday. If so, could you just email me a confirmation at email@example.com ?
3/20/2012 04:54:16 am
Very nice! Three Cheers for Angela! And, just so you know, I do think you're crazy for feeling the way you do, but at the same time I bet it's perfectly normal. I'm not even close to getting my book together but when I do I can't wait to share the sensation.
3/21/2012 02:16:47 am
I agree, Juliana. I want a physical copy too. :D
3/22/2012 06:15:44 am
Hopefully the print copy will be out by mid-April or even sooner. I will let you know.
3/20/2012 05:55:23 am
Congratulations, Angela. I don't know if it's normal, because I'm anything but, and I am already feeling the pukiness with my first round of edits. I'm not due out until June, but it's coming up fast.
3/20/2012 07:09:15 am
Congratulations! The feeling is normal. If you think this is bad, just wait until you find out a review has been posted! Ack! Now that's nausea time indeed.
3/20/2012 07:17:25 am
Major congrats, Angela! I think it's a normal and well deserved feeling. I would think seeing the first reviews come in will be worse, lol. Heading over to check it out now. Good luck!
Um, I felt EXACTLY the same way a couple of weeks ago when I first released my book! I asked my 10-year-old why my dream job brought such sickening feelings with it (she's 12, didn't have a whole lot of insight). I think it is because we are ao very passionate about it, when finally setting it out in the wide open for others to see we are terrified of what will become of our precious babies! Congratulations, and good luck to you!
3/20/2012 09:45:29 am
I think we all get a little queasy when we have books hitting the market. It'll pass though. I've started reading the book and your writing is flows nicely and the story makes sense, so I don't think you should think about barfing just yet. :D If I win, skip over me. Mailing costs too much. You've worked hard, so enjoy the ride!
Feeling sick, completely understand. I have a feeling the anticipation of publishing will continue to throw curve balls. The first time I let my books past my eyes for editing I felt sick, when the time comes to publish I will be in the exact same position.
3/20/2012 12:25:46 pm
Great post. Very vivid description of your crazy emotions. Congrats!
3/20/2012 08:10:41 pm
It'll pass; I've got my fifth book coming out next month, so this is the voice of experience speaking.
3/21/2012 03:11:47 am
congratulations what you are feeling is normal.
3/21/2012 03:25:28 am
Congratulations! At least it's not at all cold in Times Square today and your nakedness would probably not phase may New Yorkers.
3/22/2012 02:39:53 am
I think that pukey feeling is normal. You put your work out there for others to critique. That takes enormous guts. I don't think that feeling will ever go away just get less over time.
3/22/2012 02:47:12 am
Doesn't matter if it is normal or not, this is SO exciting! Congratulations!!!!
Rebecca L. Fisk
3/22/2012 12:51:09 pm
The pukey blahs have an actual scientific cause- adrenaline. yay, pukeys! :>D You have nothing to feel sick about though, 'cause your book is AWESOME~
3/22/2012 01:31:56 pm
B & C.
3/23/2012 04:32:01 am
Great and sweet and congratulations! The green will pass but the sweetness of publication will linger.
3/23/2012 04:50:54 pm
Congratulations. I am new to the virtual world and slow on how things work but I will tell you this, all the pukey green feelings do pass especially when "published author" is what you tell people you are, I know I like it.
3/25/2012 07:08:53 am
Hi Angela! Congrats on your book! Yay! *\0/* I can't tell you you're not crazy, because you are a writer after all! :) But normal or not, it will pass...I hope! Awesome news!
4/1/2012 12:08:24 am
Well, let see I just read Wanted: Dead or Undead, and it was a good read.... But I hate it when writers don't finish the book but make it a two book deal. Just my feelings, I did get it for free and read it on my Kindle. So I can't really say anything about it other than I am waiting for book two. lol
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