
I'm not a religious fanatic, but I do have a moral compass and "rules" for myself that I try my best to live by. But here's the thing...I belong to a religious affiliation who have even more rules that I should be living by, and the kinds of stories I find myself writing tend to break a lot of those rules. I'm a good person, but my characters make a lot of mistakes--some pretty big ones. These are the stories that come to me, the voices that whisper in my ear. Personally, I think I would be HORRIBLE at writing religious fiction type books, so knowing that, I don't even try.
So why does any of this matter? I guess because I worry someone might mistake my stories as my own personal belief system. What I write about rarely matches up to what I believe to be true. Do I believe kids should be having sex at fifteen-years-old? Heck no. Do I believe it's okay for kids to drink? Never. The list goes on.
Desert Rice deals with some pretty tough topics. I don't go into details, but there is enough there for a reader to paint their own sordid picture. This is a book that I know might offend several people of my church. I guess, even after all this time, I still worry about what people think of me. Sad, I know.
So then why write the stories I do? Why write about zombies or child abuse? Why not just stick to my moral compass and do the right thing? Because rarely do I pick the story or its characters--they come to me. That sounds crazy, but it's true. So I write what I write, and I will let the chips fall where they may. I don't think what I write about pushes any major envelopes--there are MANY books out there with topics and word choices I would NEVER do--but to be a member of a religion that preaches building up the kingdom God, I'm pretty sure my books aren't doing any of that.
Take Stephanie Meyer for instance (I know, I know. We really don't want to talk about her, right?) but her fourth book got some members of her religious group in an uproar. They didn't agree with what she wrote. They attacked her and questioned her standing in her church. Besides her writing not being up to par, she didn't write anything completely offensive or downright evil, but she suffered some backlash for it, regardless.
So how can I be who I am, believe what I do, but write books that contradict some of those beliefs? Am I a hypocrite? Maybe. I don't know. There are certain lines I have drawn, certain "things" and word choices I would never use, but I have made some "creative choices" (for lack of a better term) that some in my religious community would say is wrong--I should be sticking to my standards, so they would say.
What do I do? How do I walk that fine line? How do I explain myself...or not?
What do you think? How do you balance it? Do you draw lines in the sand or do you write the story that needs to be written...no matter what? I'd love to know.