I Don't Know What I'm Doing...

I don't know what I'm doing. That's a fact. Everyday I sit down at my computer, open my the file for my work in progress and think, "Okay, blinking cursor, where do we go from here. Show me the way." I'm a pantser not a plotter. Every time I sit down at my computer I'm curious as to what will be written, because often times I have no idea until I see it on the screen. But there are far more days in which I stare at that same screen, waiting for something magical to happen, and it doesn't.

I think if I just KNEW what I was doing, the writing process for me would be so much easier. But do I want easy? Do I want predictable? (Not that I'm saying plotting is either of those things, I'm just trying to figure out what I want and what works best with my personality). What do I want?

I think I like not knowing what I'm doing. It makes the writing process extremely interesting even if it can be long and somewhat frustrating. I guess I don't have to know anything, I just need to keep sitting my butt in the chair with my hands on the laptop and make an effort to learn.