"Consistency" - Just Jot January #JusJoJan #Habits #writingprompts

Oh, "consistency!" How I loathe thee (much like the word "budget" don't get me started)! 

I guess if I were consistent in anything it would be just how damn inconsistent I am! *insert cymbal crash HERE*

​I have not been officially diagnosed, but the signs are there that would say I have some sort of attention deficit. It has become much worse as I've gotten older. So no one project is EVER going to hold my attention for long, minus writing perhaps (with the giant hiatus' thrown in there every now and again) because with writing I can jump from poetry to short-stories, to blogging, to novels, and back again. 

Everything else? Not so much. Some examples and their proceeding excuses: 

• Roller Derby - Hundreds of dollars wasted. To be fair, it's SUPER dangerous, but sooo freaking cool. I'm just not cool enough to allow my body to get broken. I'm old and don't heal like I used to. 
• Water painting - I still have the stuff. Haven't touched it in...two years.
• Pickleball - Love it. Haven't played it in over a year or so. Lost my group and haven't found another. 
• Car camping - Group disbanded. Still have the stuff.
• Line dancing - Went once. Fell in love. Bought cowboy boots. Haven't been back since. 
• Gym membership - Had one. Maybe two. Determined to go and get freaking fit and snatched. Getting snatched takes more than a month or two. discontinued the membership when it was due. 

It is what it is. I am flighty but fun *smiles*.

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I really really do want to be consistent in my writing. I have missed it more than anyone can possibly know. A six year hiatus has been the longest I had ever gone without writing anything...and I mean anything. Fear and failure held me back. Do you see those books over there to the right? Book three in the ANYONE? series was supposed to have been published in 2020. It didn't happen because 2020 became one of the worst years in my life, and 2021 wasn't much better (divorce after 26 years, moving, full-time job, coming out as gay). Not writing that book and publishing it like I said I would, I knew I had let a lot of people down. 

​So writing anything seemed wrong if I wasn't writing on that book. The longer it went, the worse it got. I hope that makes sense. 

I am here now, blogging bit by bit, trying to be consistent in this one thing. I am hoping blogging will spur my creative juices to write bigger things in the future...without fear. 

Just Jot January #JusJoJan hosted by Linda Hill
Daily Prompt offered up by Warren